its october

wewww another "new" month....i wish i have new experience in this wonderful month...amien....

#octtoberwish (oh - so - twitter) be a better, better, as always, always will a better person....

its kinda funny...bout how my life up and down lately...Gawd...how i through all the problem...and how i fixed them all...and how i jumped into a lill depressed...cryin alone...till i have a stupid thought (escape from my home)...

Thanks God u still gimme those strength to passed it all....i know U'll always beside me...U're the best Allah...

im upset....very upset....i know that my mother is gone....i know it, excatly and for sure....but please just let her rest in peace....and i wish that u know im 21st - year - old - lill - girl pliss dont involve me with ur bussiness....i have no idea what i have to do, say and fix them all....should i say it out loud??or will u understand by urself??but remember one thing, i dont hate you....i know that u think that i can fixed all the problems but unfortunately im not my mom someone who can give a perfect solution in any situation...and of course im sorry for that....

yupp thats it....hopefully we can understand each other...and there is no problem like this in the future....amien....love you all....im sure that i cant found any other person like you all...let past be the past...we are big and happy family :)

lots of love

heni

another chapter of my life

every person has a chapters (chapter-chapter) in their life......so do I.....now in this post i'm going to tell you one chapter in my life....first i'll say big biger bigest thanks for my bawel for everythin.....include for let me write this one.....love you hon!!!!

here we go.....

this story is dedicated for Septian Andri Aditya (alm)

[07-09-1988] - [06-05-2010]

he came to my life.....wisely.....disaat aku bener-bener butuh seseorang yang bisa aku ajak sharing.....dia ada disana jadi "tempat sampahku" tempat ku berbagi semuanya.....dia ngebuat aku terbiasa dengan semua hal tentang dia juga....and finaly im in love with him.....maybe im so in love with him......dia hadir dengan kesederhanannya, ketulusannya, keceriaannya, semangat hidupnya, semua hal yang ngebuat aku berpikir kq ada orang kayak dia.....disamping semua kekurangannya...tapi toh ga ada orang yang sempurna termasuk dia.....ternyata dia ga kekal dia juga bisa dipanggil sama Allah......dan semua orang pun bisa......

in a relationship with him.....honestly im so so so happy with this one......yeaaahh i think finaly i found him......someone who will i spend my entire life with.....tapi manusia bisa ngerencanain Allah yang bakal nentuin.....rencana-rencana yang kita buat.....gimana kamu janjiin aku selamanya.....gimana akhirnya kamu ninggalin aku setelah kamu janji kayak gitu.....kamu janji bakal jagain aku nggantiin mamah...tapi kamu malah nyusul mamah kesana....

yaa semuanya emang tinggal kenangan tapi yang jelas aku mau bilang ama kamu septian 2 bulan ngejalin hubungan sama kamu bener-bener ngebuat aku banyak belajar tentang kehidupan.....kamu ngajarin aku banyak hal.....makasih makasih cuma itu yang bisa aku bilang....doa doa dan doa cuma itu yang bisa aku kasih ke kamu......rest in peace......semua orang disini sayang kamu....tenang ajj disini aku baik-baik ajj....aku sedikit demi sedikit udah bisa nata hidupku lagi.....aku bukan cewe lemah yang pertama kali kamu kenal dulu, sekarang aku lebih kuat lagi....makasih uda pernah jadi seseorang yang ngebuat hari-hariq lebih berwarna....

sekarang aku bakal ngebuat bab-bab baru lainnya....bab-bab yang semoga lebih berwarana lagi....dan pastinya diisi sama orang-orang yang berarti di hidupku.....yang pastinya juga bakal ngebuat aku banyak banyak belajar tentang kehidupan......learn from experience its much much better....

lost of love